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e m P t Y Happy Endings Are for Fairy Tales - Forgetting.Eternity
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Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming

{/Good Morning Sunshine. --

Saturday, March 3, 2007 ( 10:30 a.m. )

'anger will push you over the edge if not controlled properly;
but i will take anger, harness it and use it as strength.
For one day will i'll push you all over the edge and leave you in awe;
Then you'll see what you've all been missing out on.
Take no prisioners, but just the pride & satisfaction
of proving them all wrong,
and make them see how bright you really do shine.
anger can be your downfall, but it will help me rise to glory;
& it will be my strength.'
-j.w
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So yeah, lately things have been working themselves out. A little for the better i guess. I'm glad but some if it still kinda bothers me. Hopefully everything will clear up soon. Anyways this morning i woke up...it was a good morning until my mom started opening the mail, and no she did not find my report card -_- . She got a Awards Letter for my brother, this sports (badminton) award he recieves every year. I'm always a little spiteful about this because never once have i made that list but the past few years i've been working my ass off, not just for that but for myself to prove that i really can win it all. Anyways...EVERYONE knew i should of been on the list for this year..but guess what? i'm not. BIG SURPRISE, the head coach decided to screw me over...AGAIN. Yeah ok whatever i've got something to say to that "Your an asshole who doesn't reconize true talent. You try to keep the parents happy by giving their kids awards just so they'll keep registering for your classes so you make money. I put my heart and soul into training this year and frankly...i dont give a rats ass anymore. Everyone knows that i deserved one this year, and they see right through your fakeness. You may of trainned me but I owe you nothing, you got paid already. Thanks for all the determination to expose you for the prick you really are. Mission succeeded." /END RANT

Anyways...debut today...pretty excited. and umm....yeah thats about it. its 10:44 am so yeah nothing has happened quite yet. OH yesterday i did go work out for 4 hours though, man i feel tired but yeah i guess it'll all pay off sometime. Obviously not in an award because thoes are biais but you know...in other ways. OK more updates laters.
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"Strength does not come from winning.
Your struggles develop your strengths.
When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender,
that is strength."
-Arnold Schwarzenegger
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-pceout.

Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty

{/Beats & Rhythms --

it's the words of my soul

Home - Above & Beyond

I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now

{/Never Look Back --

watch me waste my life away

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{/credits --

designer Â Dancing Sheep

Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all

{/In The End --

this one's for you

So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.