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Happy Endings Are for Fairy Tales - Forgetting.Eternity
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there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
j.wong; never an easy answer
carpe diem quam minimum credula postero
seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
{/The Face Behind The Mask --
Do you really want to know?
j.wong; never an easy answer
carpe diem quam minimum credula postero
seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
okay lets get this fucking straight. IF I KNEW WHY THINGS WERE HAPPENING I WOULDN'T ASK YOU FOR YOUR OPINION. I turned to you because you could always make me feel better. To me true friends are people who will stick with you right to the end, no matter how bad it gets. I'm sorry my life is constantly a shit hole and that "i cause myself misery" but i thought that you'd be able to help me through it no matter how frustrated you were. I know i shouldn't of put you through all of that but I honestly thought you could be there for me. But apparently i am a horrible friend who puts my friends through shit that most people wouldn't take. I didn't know you felt that way about me so I'm sorry and if you can't take it anymore, then just leave. I'll understand.
Yeah i'm fucking ignorant. I'm seventeen, still learning, still growing. of course i'm fucking ignorant at times. I'm sorry your sick of that. But because i'm ignorant i'm trying to figure out what i can do to be less ignorant. But you never bothered to explain and provide examples did you? So how am i suppose to figure it out. If i knew trust me, i wouldn't be asking you and putting myself through all this crap. But its because i want to know what i'm doing wrong that i bothered asking you. I asked you nicely and you didn't say anything so please don't call me ignorant and expect me to know what your talking about because i really don't. Once again, if i did, i wouldn't be fucking asking you.
Ok and I guess I'm "beyond sad". then like stated above, just leave. I don't want you to be unhappy, unconvinced and whatever it is that you are so leave. It'll be better for the both of us.
Next time I'll know better then to talk to you about things like this. I just wished you told me you didn't want to hear any of it sooner.
its not that i want you to go, but you make it sound as if you don't want to stay. hey, i'm sorry. but i just need someone to be patient with me. You have been but i guess i can't expect you to always stay that way. I'm sorry.
and on a side note: i'd say your pretty ignorant yourself for walking away the way you did. "things arnt going well so i'll just block you" reaaaal mature on your end.
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
{/BECAUSE I'M A FUCKING DRAMA QUEEN, HAPPY?! --
Wednesday, April 30, 2008 ( 11:12 p.m. )
okay lets get this fucking straight. IF I KNEW WHY THINGS WERE HAPPENING I WOULDN'T ASK YOU FOR YOUR OPINION. I turned to you because you could always make me feel better. To me true friends are people who will stick with you right to the end, no matter how bad it gets. I'm sorry my life is constantly a shit hole and that "i cause myself misery" but i thought that you'd be able to help me through it no matter how frustrated you were. I know i shouldn't of put you through all of that but I honestly thought you could be there for me. But apparently i am a horrible friend who puts my friends through shit that most people wouldn't take. I didn't know you felt that way about me so I'm sorry and if you can't take it anymore, then just leave. I'll understand.
Yeah i'm fucking ignorant. I'm seventeen, still learning, still growing. of course i'm fucking ignorant at times. I'm sorry your sick of that. But because i'm ignorant i'm trying to figure out what i can do to be less ignorant. But you never bothered to explain and provide examples did you? So how am i suppose to figure it out. If i knew trust me, i wouldn't be asking you and putting myself through all this crap. But its because i want to know what i'm doing wrong that i bothered asking you. I asked you nicely and you didn't say anything so please don't call me ignorant and expect me to know what your talking about because i really don't. Once again, if i did, i wouldn't be fucking asking you.
Ok and I guess I'm "beyond sad". then like stated above, just leave. I don't want you to be unhappy, unconvinced and whatever it is that you are so leave. It'll be better for the both of us.
Next time I'll know better then to talk to you about things like this. I just wished you told me you didn't want to hear any of it sooner.
its not that i want you to go, but you make it sound as if you don't want to stay. hey, i'm sorry. but i just need someone to be patient with me. You have been but i guess i can't expect you to always stay that way. I'm sorry.
and on a side note: i'd say your pretty ignorant yourself for walking away the way you did. "things arnt going well so i'll just block you" reaaaal mature on your end.
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
{/Beats & Rhythms --
it's the words of my soul
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
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I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
{/Never Look Back --
watch me waste my life away
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designer  DancingSheep
Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
{/In The End --
this one's for you
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.