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Happy Endings Are for Fairy Tales - Forgetting.Eternity
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there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
{/The Face Behind The Mask --
Do you really want to know?
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
I know I'm not fair alot of the times, i can be selfish and hard headed but its not because of you, its because of me. I have no right to judge you on what someone else has done. Your not there to clean up their shit. I shouldn't always assume that you'll be the same as them because maybe, just maybe, your not. I find myself apologizing to every single one of these ghost of the past, not being able to open up, but in truth I never learn from these mistakes. Maybe thats why i make such a horrible girlfriend. It's just i think i've become too realistic for my own good, where i just don't believe good things happen to me anymore, and when they do I try to find a way to screw it up because its just too good, or just to fulfill my stupid self-proclaimed prophesy. Truth is, I'm so scared to change the status quo. I just can't say anything that'll hurt you, change you, hurt and change US. That's my problem. I just cant force myself to say things like this to people that mean more than anything to me because seeing them hurt is worse then hurting myself. Thats why i keep it bottled inside, because i know that I can take all the hurt and I value the way things are now more than changing anything we have. It just doesn't seem worth it to me because why bother two people when just having it bother me is enough? I know this has gotta change but I dont know how to go about this. I've tried, trust me I've tried, but i just dont know how to.
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
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Friday, August 8, 2008 ( 10:33 p.m. )
I know I'm not fair alot of the times, i can be selfish and hard headed but its not because of you, its because of me. I have no right to judge you on what someone else has done. Your not there to clean up their shit. I shouldn't always assume that you'll be the same as them because maybe, just maybe, your not. I find myself apologizing to every single one of these ghost of the past, not being able to open up, but in truth I never learn from these mistakes. Maybe thats why i make such a horrible girlfriend. It's just i think i've become too realistic for my own good, where i just don't believe good things happen to me anymore, and when they do I try to find a way to screw it up because its just too good, or just to fulfill my stupid self-proclaimed prophesy. Truth is, I'm so scared to change the status quo. I just can't say anything that'll hurt you, change you, hurt and change US. That's my problem. I just cant force myself to say things like this to people that mean more than anything to me because seeing them hurt is worse then hurting myself. Thats why i keep it bottled inside, because i know that I can take all the hurt and I value the way things are now more than changing anything we have. It just doesn't seem worth it to me because why bother two people when just having it bother me is enough? I know this has gotta change but I dont know how to go about this. I've tried, trust me I've tried, but i just dont know how to.
I'm sorry for giving us a lack of confidence but I'm telling you all of this because i want you to know that I believe in us. Its not going to take a day or two to fix this, much longer, but if your in for the long journey i guess i am too. I love you.
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hint- its the little things that count, show me that and i'll believe
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
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it's the words of my soul
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
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I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
{/Never Look Back --
watch me waste my life away
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designer  DancingSheep
Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
{/In The End --
this one's for you
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.