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Happy Endings Are for Fairy Tales - Forgetting.Eternity
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there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
{/The Face Behind The Mask --
Do you really want to know?
j.wong; never an easy answer
carpe diem quam minimum credula postero
seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
this has been the first night since many nights where i've "cried myself to sleep". i cant really say sleep because...i can't sleep. I can't sleep feeling miserable inside and having all these emotions run through my mind, but i would like to know how you do it. I would like to know how it is your able to sleep at night, not knowing if i'm alright or not. I never know if your okay because you don't talk to me about it, I want to know, but theres no way to know without you talking to me about it is there? I want to know why it is that i'm still up after futile attempts to sleep, still hoping and waiting for you to call. I want to know why it is my eyes hurt so much right now and why i'm hurting so much right now. But maybe all these questions will make you feel like a bad person, which you arnt. This wasn't ever written for you, its for me because i have no one else to talk to right now except for some superficial web page. It feels a little better getting this all out some how. I want to know why it is your nose plugs up when you cry, or why people cry at all. I want to know why i'm still scared of the dark and being alone. I want to know why your doing right now, why you still haven't called. I want to know whether or not they were right in telling me i'm in too deep. i want to know why i love you so much that it hurts being away from you, not talking to you, not hearing your voice. I want to know why the only thing i ever think about is you, why your memories just wont leave me alone. I want to know you, what you feel, what you think. I'm so sick of all these questions and i know perfect ways of letting them all go, but you said i wasn't allowed. I want to know why your words still stop me. I want to know what your doing at this very moment, are you thinking about me? i want you to call, i want you to know that i want you to call but when will i realize you wont. This is stupid. I don't want to wait, but i'll kill myself waiting. 11:11 make a wish.
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
{/tell me how you sleep at night --
Tuesday, October 7, 2008 ( 10:59 p.m. )
this has been the first night since many nights where i've "cried myself to sleep". i cant really say sleep because...i can't sleep. I can't sleep feeling miserable inside and having all these emotions run through my mind, but i would like to know how you do it. I would like to know how it is your able to sleep at night, not knowing if i'm alright or not. I never know if your okay because you don't talk to me about it, I want to know, but theres no way to know without you talking to me about it is there? I want to know why it is that i'm still up after futile attempts to sleep, still hoping and waiting for you to call. I want to know why it is my eyes hurt so much right now and why i'm hurting so much right now. But maybe all these questions will make you feel like a bad person, which you arnt. This wasn't ever written for you, its for me because i have no one else to talk to right now except for some superficial web page. It feels a little better getting this all out some how. I want to know why it is your nose plugs up when you cry, or why people cry at all. I want to know why i'm still scared of the dark and being alone. I want to know why your doing right now, why you still haven't called. I want to know whether or not they were right in telling me i'm in too deep. i want to know why i love you so much that it hurts being away from you, not talking to you, not hearing your voice. I want to know why the only thing i ever think about is you, why your memories just wont leave me alone. I want to know you, what you feel, what you think. I'm so sick of all these questions and i know perfect ways of letting them all go, but you said i wasn't allowed. I want to know why your words still stop me. I want to know what your doing at this very moment, are you thinking about me? i want you to call, i want you to know that i want you to call but when will i realize you wont. This is stupid. I don't want to wait, but i'll kill myself waiting. 11:11 make a wish.
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
{/Beats & Rhythms --
it's the words of my soul
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
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designer  DancingSheep
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
{/Never Look Back --
watch me waste my life away
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{/credits --
designer  DancingSheep
Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
{/In The End --
this one's for you
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.