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Happy Endings Are for Fairy Tales - Forgetting.Eternity
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there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
{/The Face Behind The Mask --
Do you really want to know?
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
its like i'm waiting for this gigantic train wreck where my life just goes to shit.
I'm trying everything i can to stop it but the train is coming down that track so fast and i dont know how to stop it. The breaks are too worn out to use and all the passengers are slowly accepting the fact that they're about to die.
it's so hard to describe this feeling. A part of my mind is telling me the impending doom is coming, another part is telling me its going to be okay, A million things are running through my mind like "what could i have done better", "why are things like this" and all that bullshit. I want us and i'm willing to do anything and everything for it but i dont see it working. I've never loved someone so much in my life and i never want to let go but a part of me is telling me to be ready for everything to come crashing down. It's a misrable feeling. I feel so powerless to do anything and i'm stuck watching that train coming down the track.
it feels like i'm being torn apart one little slice at a time.
fuck what am i saying. the only thing that matters is i love you. i love you i love you I FRICKEN LOVE YOU. i know we can do this, i know we can do this and i wont let something so trivial and stupid ruin it. I'm stronger for you and i won't ever give up. Your what i want and your what i need. stupid fuckng train, i'm superman and i'll fix those tracks.
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
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Monday, February 16, 2009 ( 10:50 p.m. )
its like i'm waiting for this gigantic train wreck where my life just goes to shit.
I'm trying everything i can to stop it but the train is coming down that track so fast and i dont know how to stop it. The breaks are too worn out to use and all the passengers are slowly accepting the fact that they're about to die.
it's so hard to describe this feeling. A part of my mind is telling me the impending doom is coming, another part is telling me its going to be okay, A million things are running through my mind like "what could i have done better", "why are things like this" and all that bullshit. I want us and i'm willing to do anything and everything for it but i dont see it working. I've never loved someone so much in my life and i never want to let go but a part of me is telling me to be ready for everything to come crashing down. It's a misrable feeling. I feel so powerless to do anything and i'm stuck watching that train coming down the track.
it feels like i'm being torn apart one little slice at a time.
fuck what am i saying. the only thing that matters is i love you. i love you i love you I FRICKEN LOVE YOU. i know we can do this, i know we can do this and i wont let something so trivial and stupid ruin it. I'm stronger for you and i won't ever give up. Your what i want and your what i need. stupid fuckng train, i'm superman and i'll fix those tracks.
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
{/Beats & Rhythms --
it's the words of my soul
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
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designer  DancingSheep
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
{/Never Look Back --
watch me waste my life away
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{/credits --
designer  DancingSheep
Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
{/In The End --
this one's for you
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.