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Happy Endings Are for Fairy Tales - Forgetting.Eternity
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there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
{/The Face Behind The Mask --
Do you really want to know?
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
words cannot possibly describe how much a failure i feel like right now. i dont know what i want to do with my life. i'm sure everyone has had this moment in their life, when they're just waiting for a beam of white light to show them the way. I'm still waiting.
waking up this morning felt like i was entering a bad dream instead of waking up from one. it's horrifying. my body is so worn down but my mind wont let it rest and every morning this just repeats.
they say life is like a surprise, and it really is. You wake up not knowing if this is the last day, and if something will change your life. I dont like surprises. Okay, yes surprises are fun, they make life exciting but right now i kinda just prefer knowing. I'd be nice fast forwarding your life seeing where you'll be, or rewinding, re-living all the good times. Pause at the smile.
so then, what does it mean to love someone? i think i've decided that love isnt for the faint of heart. When is it that you decide that someone is "the one"? i dont think anyone can really answer those questions. but feeling the way i do now, is enough.
So when is it that enough is enough? will enough...always be enough? of course its enough until someone has enough. enough is such a funny word. i dont think ive had enough. never enough hugs, kisses, time.
is it possible to want too much? Like on deal or no deal, when someone is offered a large sum of money but they want more? Is too much of something not good? Like having too much knowledge? When do you stop and tell yourself that your being greedy, you want too much? I always want more. More of this, more of that. More of you.
It's hard writing coherent paragraphs. my thoughts are just too sporadic right now.It's kind like...a painter. He's trying to pain something on canvas, hes got all of these brilliant ideas but he doesnt know where to start...so he just throws the paint on the canvas creating...a mess. Thats what my head feels like...paint splatted on canvas. maybe those are my brains =/ ew. at least i go out in style.
1 thing 2 say. 3 words 4 you.
i love you.
nos es melior una. una insquequo terminus
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
{/too early --
Monday, March 30, 2009 ( 8:04 a.m. )
words cannot possibly describe how much a failure i feel like right now. i dont know what i want to do with my life. i'm sure everyone has had this moment in their life, when they're just waiting for a beam of white light to show them the way. I'm still waiting.
waking up this morning felt like i was entering a bad dream instead of waking up from one. it's horrifying. my body is so worn down but my mind wont let it rest and every morning this just repeats.
they say life is like a surprise, and it really is. You wake up not knowing if this is the last day, and if something will change your life. I dont like surprises. Okay, yes surprises are fun, they make life exciting but right now i kinda just prefer knowing. I'd be nice fast forwarding your life seeing where you'll be, or rewinding, re-living all the good times. Pause at the smile.
so then, what does it mean to love someone? i think i've decided that love isnt for the faint of heart. When is it that you decide that someone is "the one"? i dont think anyone can really answer those questions. but feeling the way i do now, is enough.
So when is it that enough is enough? will enough...always be enough? of course its enough until someone has enough. enough is such a funny word. i dont think ive had enough. never enough hugs, kisses, time.
is it possible to want too much? Like on deal or no deal, when someone is offered a large sum of money but they want more? Is too much of something not good? Like having too much knowledge? When do you stop and tell yourself that your being greedy, you want too much? I always want more. More of this, more of that. More of you.
It's hard writing coherent paragraphs. my thoughts are just too sporadic right now.It's kind like...a painter. He's trying to pain something on canvas, hes got all of these brilliant ideas but he doesnt know where to start...so he just throws the paint on the canvas creating...a mess. Thats what my head feels like...paint splatted on canvas. maybe those are my brains =/ ew. at least i go out in style.
1 thing 2 say. 3 words 4 you.
i love you.
nos es melior una. una insquequo terminus
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
{/Beats & Rhythms --
it's the words of my soul
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
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designer  DancingSheep
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
{/Never Look Back --
watch me waste my life away
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{/credits --
designer  DancingSheep
Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
{/In The End --
this one's for you
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.