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Happy Endings Are for Fairy Tales - Forgetting.Eternity
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there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in
How I love to ...give in
{/The Face Behind The Mask --
Do you really want to know?
j.wong; never an easy answer
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seize the day, trust no tomorrows;
that which does not kill me makes me stronger
Here no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
i hope you know it fucking hurts
YOU dont understand how much it means to me. how i really just wanted to do something for once. i agreed to fucking give that up. I fucking apologized, i tried to do everything YOUR fucking way. What have you let me have lately? WHAT. I ask for ONE simple little thing that probably would of happen anyways and you couldnt even give that to me. You don't understand that I FUCKING CARE. Do you think your friends really care if you get in trouble driving after a certain time? I DONT. I fucking love you, i fucking care but if you dont appreciate it than fine. whatever.
i hate fucking feeling like this. fucking pissed of with no one to talk to. hoping that you'll call, knowing that you probaly wont.
it hurts when you just tell me " good for you" and stuff like that. to me it means you dont care, and that breaks my fucking heart every time, EVERY time. I don't like how you just tell me that you'd gona go do shit the way you want to, it makes me feel like what i think doesnt matter, nor will it affect you in any way shape or form because you'll just go on doing whatever it is you want to. These 2 things kill me inside. it just hurts, really hurts. I want to know that i mean something to you. i want to know that even though we want seperate things, we can still come together and try to reach some sort of agreement. It feels like to me that your just standing at your end, refusing to move. I've already come more than half way. I cant always walk all the way to your side anymore. Theres gotta be a line somewhere.
i don't think you'll call tonight. i want you to, but i dont think you will. I dont want to be the one texting you first this time. I left, you told me to, so now im waiting for you to come chase me down because i mean something to you. I want you to call me and tell me that you don't want us to sleep feeling like this. i want you to call. i'll wait, but i wont be calling you first. not this time.
Where no one sleeps, one lays up while the other lies down
Ask the line on your face what the line on your hand meant
We,we couldn't see what was coming
{/ --
Saturday, July 4, 2009 ( 11:17 p.m. )
i hope you know it fucking hurts
YOU dont understand how much it means to me. how i really just wanted to do something for once. i agreed to fucking give that up. I fucking apologized, i tried to do everything YOUR fucking way. What have you let me have lately? WHAT. I ask for ONE simple little thing that probably would of happen anyways and you couldnt even give that to me. You don't understand that I FUCKING CARE. Do you think your friends really care if you get in trouble driving after a certain time? I DONT. I fucking love you, i fucking care but if you dont appreciate it than fine. whatever.
i hate fucking feeling like this. fucking pissed of with no one to talk to. hoping that you'll call, knowing that you probaly wont.
it hurts when you just tell me " good for you" and stuff like that. to me it means you dont care, and that breaks my fucking heart every time, EVERY time. I don't like how you just tell me that you'd gona go do shit the way you want to, it makes me feel like what i think doesnt matter, nor will it affect you in any way shape or form because you'll just go on doing whatever it is you want to. These 2 things kill me inside. it just hurts, really hurts. I want to know that i mean something to you. i want to know that even though we want seperate things, we can still come together and try to reach some sort of agreement. It feels like to me that your just standing at your end, refusing to move. I've already come more than half way. I cant always walk all the way to your side anymore. Theres gotta be a line somewhere.
i don't think you'll call tonight. i want you to, but i dont think you will. I dont want to be the one texting you first this time. I left, you told me to, so now im waiting for you to come chase me down because i mean something to you. I want you to call me and tell me that you don't want us to sleep feeling like this. i want you to call. i'll wait, but i wont be calling you first. not this time.
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
Shake your hips move your feet
Shake your head it's empty
{/Beats & Rhythms --
it's the words of my soul
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
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designer  DancingSheep
I'm so glad that I'm an island
I'm so glad that I'm an island now
{/Never Look Back --
watch me waste my life away
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{/credits --
designer  DancingSheep
Sickness was fixing me some
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.
Coughed out my heart in the last stall
Now that the damage is done
I never miss it at all
{/In The End --
this one's for you
So you might ask yourself "why am i reading this". Well, no one said you had to.
This is simply an online journal, mostly of the worst of days because sometimes we're just not ready to let go of those emotions. Somtimes you don't want to feel better. Sometimes you just want to be angry, or sad. For me reading over everything helps me stay that way. I know it sounds weird but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom, hell, before we can get better. These memories are hard to relive, hard to forget. So until I find a better way to deal with all these bottled up emotions, here they will stay.